Mood Swings
Yesterday, when we were done with our daily youths program, someone bought 14 perfumes from me and distributed one each to the youths who were interested. I was so happy as he collected my account number and transferred the money while we all trekked home, together.
Seriously, you'd think it's big money. It's not even up to 15k oo. But I was overwhelmed with different emotions. You'd think I had won the lottery. đŸ˜…
The excitement continued like that until I remembered I had no hostel accommodation and I would be stranded as lectures begin in full, next week. Immediately, my face changed, and in that moment, a friend even commented that I looked stressed. At that point, perfumes weren't my problem. They weren't going to provide a place for me on campus, after all.
It's really funny how one can wallow in sadness one minute and be excited in the next. Be happy now, and next thing, you're sighing 20 times like the world is collapsing on you. Maybe because of a single thought, memory, pain, or encounter.
I don't know what cell or organ is responsible for the change, but I feel it's unfair sometimes. When you're at peace and then something trivial or not just disrupts it. You were eager, and all of a sudden, you're unmotivated and waxing in self-pity.
Sometimes, I feel it's just that part of us that wants us to feel every emotion possible. It doesn't want us lacking or leaning to one side without experiencing the others. It wants us whole and full.
A second ago, you were overwhelmed, and now, you are reassured—calm like nothing went wrong. Maybe because of someone's message or a video you watched. From a cloudy countenance to one that is filled with sunshine and hope. And vice versa.
So, maybe this is the life that life wants us to live: the one where finding our balance isn't an option, but learning how to coexist with the bends and narrows.
As we smile, let us know someone out there is crying too, and we could be that person in a few seconds. And as we seem to be frowning and holding our faces, we could still be the one to bring life to the party.
That's it. Maybe that's how it ought to be.
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